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scorpio
25 February, 2006
The goodness of being a drama centre usher.
Boo watched 2 shows today. Rosnah & Back Up. Rosnah is really a good show! Its a monologue and the actress is really great. I could feel her breaking down, her fragileness. Her switch from one role to another is really good too. One moment crying and another, laughing. The show touched me. The contestation within oneself and religion and family and everything going around. The whole show is about a malay girl who went abroad to study, the new things she experience, and all the conflicts. The original play was from 1996! The actress only had 3 years of acting experience and she is real good!
Back Up is really an abstract show. Actually I dont understand it. But one actress turned and turned around for a full ten minute and my friend counted 350 + rounds sia. The show lasted one hour. Then there a 4 film screening about the show. I enjoyed the film better - they talk about conflicts within a new born country, Israel, being jews, being militarians, being a woman in such a country. Haha I got to sit down to watch the show =x.
Surveys surveys. I always find it hard to approach people. Shall try again once more tmr. Ha and I got a free drink and meal from RH. =) The good thing about project sites and 2 working sites being close together. >_< Still readin my book. Its a 3 part book and almost finish part 1 le! Yay.
11:41 PMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
24 February, 2006
=)
Comparing my previous public blog and this one. A whole lot of difference? For one you see names like binghui, drey, louis, sijia, ahscds and terry and huiyu. Other things dont change - haha, think, time. Anw get it @ SnapShirts.
I realised there are some things I missed doing. Editing the mtv today and I really hated to go without completing it but I must. Gone are the days when I have access to EH editing room at anytime all to myself. Yes I miss editing. Its really fun though tedious.
Coffee works wonders. I find today test ok, which is a good thing. Lets hope results will be good too.
Feeling excited because of some stuff I wanna do. Feel like going Korea for SEP from mid June to Aug! Haha. Then Aug start go HK! But tt have to depends on whether there will be class clashes. And whether I have $$ a not. But I feel like applying for SEP! And then I am wondering about all the s/u options and transfer of credit. And also if go overseas SEP le can still go partial exchange to NTU? This is so exciting.
Haha and I missed reading books. Storybooks. Was reading one on the bus bcos cldnt fall asleep (coffee works wonder - the effected lasted from 1030am till like now?). Then I was laughing so hard to myself cos it a rather baichi book. =) Hee think think this sem really vv hectic with projects, and with me being more hardworking with readings and tutorials, and with me being more healthy and going out for sports, and with me wasting tons of time online, such that I very long nv read le. Actualli I very long time never maple le too.
Yes officially no more midterms. But have to mug hard for all the projects!!
Sat = Surveying @ Kampong Glam, usher @ NLB 2.30pm till 10 pm, poster for nuSTUDIOS.
Sun = Surveying (if not done), Coffeebean RH 1-9, collating data for js3225, ssa2202, tutorial for it2001.
Ok done, I just did an enquiry on SEP and honours year. =) On a sidenote, while discussing fee hike today, my friend made an interesting observation - we should all go SMU exchange for 1 year and we will be paying the rates of NUS fees lol. =P
Some days are good, some days are bad. Today happens to be rather good. Yawn.
11:28 PMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
23 February, 2006
孤独不苦
歌手: 张卫健朝朝暮暮的等待
可以领悟说不出来
生生死死的伤害
可以感受写不出来
天涯海角都分开
红尘男女为什么相爱
头发花白随雪花飘下来
别来为我叹息
我的眼泪有它的经历
别以为我心里没有秘密
孤独不苦不在乎
才不会为一个人粉身碎骨
没有爱快乐听自己哭
孤独不苦不在乎
才不会为一个字万劫不复
想得太清楚反而迷路我愿盲目
多多少少的容颜
什么时候想不起来
点点滴滴在心头
可以明白写不出来
是是非非分不开
红尘男女为什么要相爱
相思有害随雪花飘下来
别来为我叹息
我的眼泪有它的经历
别以为我心里没有秘密
孤独不苦不在乎
才不会为一个人粉身碎骨
没有爱快乐听自己哭
孤独不苦不在乎
才不会为一个字万劫不复
想得太清楚反而迷路我愿盲目
Urgh why cnt find this song too? Super nice!! The only one I found is online listen one and it keep showing me boobs lar.. 0_0
Yeah today = astro meeting @ sakae sushi, studying @ esplanade, tennis @ suntec, usher/study @ national lib. Actually gonna be a dead meat soon. Test on Friday but I havent really started. Die. 0_0 No time! Tmr another meeting @ NUS then work again. But most prob pulling out of working. This sem is real tough. Last sem was real slack. Urgh.
I washed my hair twice today.
1:23 AMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
21 February, 2006
Its dropping!
54% of people agree that vague is sentimental63% of people think that vague is silly
54% of people agree that vague is spontaneous
Is silly a good trait? I dont understand so, can someone explain to me? Silly to me gives me a feeling of a clown, of someone not to be taken seriously. Maybe thats why I cannot comprehend the silly part.
The plague is spreading for nohari and johari.
I think its fascinating to see how you view yourself and how ppl view you and how different these view are. Though not every adjectives is there, but it forces me to think about what to chose for my friends. Some word desribe really aptly. You see the word, you see the person.
Everyone has flaws. Nohari has the word "distant". Actually wanted to chose that but then again, I think that being distant is a good trait rather than a bad one. So I didnt. So far no dominant flaws. Highest is insecure and passive. Passive I feel can be good too. I think myself more weak than insecure. Suprisingly no one chose that yet.
What reasons have people to judge you and not accepting you for who you are? No man is an island and so everyone have the every right to judge everyone. And it is by judging, that we make sense of this word, isnt it.
我不知道为什么我们给每一个人的印象都不同。是不是在面对不同人时，我们都有一些习惯？习惯让他们看到这一面的自己。
自己看自己，和别人看自己，很不同。也许是这样，我觉得原谅自己比原谅别人难几百倍。我习惯把自己的缺点放大又放大，别人的放小或容忍。我其实觉得我很会忍，只是我不知道那一天是我爆发的日子，像似沉睡多年但还没死去的火山。有时候太若无其事，有时又太在意。给别人知道自己的缺点，懦弱，是天蝎座所不为。
And Alan says I am organized. God where does he come up with that?!! I mean me? Organized? Haha. And louis say I am religious? Hmm. I am free thinker?
2:02 AMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
Stoned.
This shall be a haphazard entry because I think I am not thinking properly already due to very lack of sleep. 5 hrs a day is not enough!Yay I passed me coffeebean test on the dot. Haha got 80. I thought I will fail sia. So many weird questions. Was like practising "teamwork" by helping each other, ahem. Heh. Yay can get training pay! But I freaking spend 2 hrs back n fro for a 1/2 hr test.
Today was spent filming from like 9am t0 10pm. With the getaway to go for the test, and also when waiting for the sky to darken. Haha played Taboo while we waited and ordered canadian pizza to treat our talents. I suck at Taboo. Actually felt quite out from the group because they seem to know each other vv well. My group is with 3 year threes who are closed with each other and the talents are their friends. Hah but one of the talent found me familar and finally recalled why: itz at the skating training session when I in year 1. Goodness I really dont recall. Haha but he not bad looking. Actually I only rem Adrian. And another girl whose name I cnt recall. But he doesnt know Yong Han though. Ok this is crap. Move on.
Yest was crazily spent deciding last minute at 3am to watch brokeback mountain at 11am in Cathay (for those who are born in 1985 but in the later months and thought you cnt watch R21 show, dont fret! Go Cathay, they go by YEAR rather then the other idiotic cinema who go by birthdate. Education go by year dont they, I dont understand the rational of going by birthdates. Yeah and I think I prob cnt get $$ from govt too cos I am not yet 21.) And so me and drey were in the cinema by 10am. For once I am early but the guys - louis and binghui have to make us wait. 0_0 Actually the show is ok only. Not as wow as what ppl say, think its overhyped? And some scenes were badly cut. Censorship -_-. And so this is the first R21 show! =) With drey bringing the 3 nov babies out. Heh. After tt we went down to ECP and were rather on the dot, being late by 2 min I think but 1st group to reach nonetheless. And the group expanded to me, drey, bh, louis, wingyan, yb, sijia. Macs then to skating. This time nv reach the end bcos teaching louis to skate =) wingyan though first time inline skate bt cos ice skate queen so also quite good. sijia yb are pro so no need to say. First time go to toilet on skates. Lol. Real hard sia esp the steps out. Lucky got BingHui - I must praise him a bit - cos recently I really find him as a HAO NAN REN. Though a childish one nonetheless. Heh. Yeah so I skate here and there vv slowly and fell down like 2 times I think. Wah liao nv wear hand guard so fall le hand pain. Then 2nd time I fell I dont want to fall on my hands so fall on my butt. Also pain sia. Lesson learnt: next time rem to bring hand guards and not elbow guards! Then we all like photowhores taking photo everywhere. Haha. Then we went for dinner. & eunice joined us. But I think a lot of ppl didnt quite enjoyed the food there. Though really, the first time we went it was vv nice. Lala I think tt the prob of intro good food to ppl, somedays the place mite not be up to standard then you feel bad about bring them to the wrong places. Hmm anyway went BH house and played bridge! Like finally. Goodness I really loved the bridge games we had, though I was always slow to realise whats happening. Bridge is good!! Again!!
Then rush off to have msn meeting for proj. Boo and slept at 2am woke at 645am to go to sch. Lack of slp!
And yeah I dunno y I think ranting away here. Haha I am not at home! In hall now. Cos I absolutely dread to travel if today or rather just now end at 10pm and I have to reach sch the nxt day at 9am. Travelling home I prob reach at 12am and tmr I need to wake at 645 which is a vv bad idea. Sometimes I missed hall. And yea, thank for lending me your hall to stay for the night. =)
1:25 AMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
19 February, 2006
Take this!
devil meangel me
Just realised the quiz got negative one instead of all positive. So shoot my flaws out. I am human after all.
Ok Confessions of 300 unmarried men is not bad. Though some part I dont understand the logic of it. But overall is ok. Acting was not bad =) Haha & I met this actor Tim in the lift and he initiated a chat. Keke. Actually was flustered at the time cos I was late. I seemed to be always late somehow. & why why must I alway kena bridge? So stress and dun get to watch show. Boo. I shall find someone to change with me haha.
Yeah tmr inline skate at ECP. & I think I gonna be so dead next week. I dread to think of it.
12:41 AMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
17 February, 2006
Nothing in particular. Just insane ramblings.
Congratualations! You've won a free autographed Alan Kuo CD from HOOKED! =) Thanks for signing up for HOOKED, and do stay tune to us!=D 2nd CD I won from HOOKED haha.
Today in a photography mood. Taking photos everywhere.
Its the term break. But not a joy because I probably got to go to school everyday too. & the first day to sch return will be greeted by one midterm and 6 hrs straight of lessons. How very nice is that?
Well well shall think of happier stuff. Went to the science library today for the 1st time! Haha it so different from Central library. Much quieter and at such a ulu place. Good place to study too. Have the one person cubicle for you to mug alone. Haha and only today then I know med fac has this cafe - coffee ground or smthing. 0_o. I am an ARTS person. Boo.
Now alone in SOC TR8. So quiet and errie. Waiting for cca to start.
Heard that confessions of 300 unmarried men is quite dry. Hmm I shall see for myself tmr. =)
Today = consultation for js3225, audio recording for nm3208 (bet u didnt know that NUS got this audio recording studio in Arts, though it look machiam like storerm inside but well it does the job), lunch at coffee ground cafe, tour arnd med & sci, study/slp in science lib, lecture, astro. Somedays I do a lot of things. Others I slacked the whole day. I think I much prefer a packed day. At least more things to look forward to. Rather than think: God I wasted another day.
6:10 PMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
Sil li li hua la la
66% of people think that vague is independent66% of people think that vague is intelligent
66% of people agree that vague is sentimental
100% of people think that vague is silly
66% of people agree that vague is spontaneous
0_o Why everyone thinks I am silly? Though 100% = 3 person but WTH? Haha. I shall fulfill the prophecy then, and be silly all the time =D
9:58 AMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
16 February, 2006
I am..
But who am I to you?(PS: Find the link & take the quiz. Realised the link is not very visible. YOU are the key of my life! So please take it!)
2:12 PMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
Mourning Time
Haiz. Not in a very good mood now. Because I know I so screwed up my test today. Was like rather stone and couldnt really remember and for those that I remember I was pretty confused. Argh! The worst thing about this is that I wasted all my time yest! I should be well prepared but I was not. Late night studying and lack of sleep. Somemore there is not enough time to finish. So there not enough time to think also. Haiz.Must take this as a lesson and start to study earlier nxt time. It seems like the more time I have at hand, the more time I waste.
=(
I am so stoned. I hate myself when I know I could have done better but didnt.
Ahhh! Still in a very much agonized mood. Heck!
1:41 PMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
15 February, 2006
Protest
Hey NUS students, pls wear BLACK 2mr 2 protest e 3% fee hike tat NUS is implementg.0_0!
Haha I think I will wear black.
(To mourn for the fact that I slacked my day away w/o studying much for the mid term tmr.)
11:38 PMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
14 February, 2006
Lalala love song~
Adolescent Song Of Mindless Devotion by The Lucksmiths
I love you from the heart of my bottom
I love you from the bottom of my soul
I love the soles on your feet
I love you from the foot of the hill
(I promise I will)
I'd sail the driest desert
I'd walk the wildest seas
I'd swim the highest mountain
I'd swallow chalk and swear it was cheese
If you said please
Because I la-la-la-la-love you
And I nuh-nuh-nuh-nuh-need you
And I wuh-wuh-wuh-wuh-want you
To be muh-muh-muh-muh-mine
Because I la-la-la-la-love you
And I nuh-nuh-nuh-nuh-need you
And I wuh-wuh-wuh-wuh-want you
To be muh-muh-muh-muh-mine
I love your diamond lips
I love your rosy-red eyes
I love your cheeky cheeks
I'd tear the stars out of the midday sky
(if you said 'hi')
I'd help you walk through the window
I'd sing to you beneath your door
I'd change my name to Matthew
And be the welcome mat on your floor
I don't know what five
Because I la-la-la-la-love you
And I nuh-nuh-nuh-nuh-need you
And I wuh-wuh-wuh-wuh-want you
To be muh-muh-muh-muh-mine
'Til the end of lunchtime
This song is nice!! =) But its not actually a love song, its a parody on puppy love. Damn cute. But I cnt find the song!! =(
Yup today I got a sunflower from my astro president and vp! They bought for all the girls in the comm I think. So sweet. At least I have one flower to show off haha and wont feel so out of place with so many people holding gifts. Haha. But also no time to show off lar, most of the time in class.
Today got this malu incident happening. Goodness I cnt believe that I actually went to a wrong tutorial class. Boo but I have to stay with that class because its too late to change class le as proj grps were formed. Anyway I tot I really got that timing lar. >_<
Today's a day with ups and down. But I feel H-A-P-P-Y! Even though I got 7 hrs of lsn straight. And felt real tired at the last lsn sia. Almost fell asleep. Sometime tiredness just come wham! But then its goes again. I love the kind of deep sleep that you wake up feeling you have really slept. Lala.
=)
10:11 PMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
In the mood for l-u-r-v-e
Haha had a nice dinner @ the rice table with HT & Terry. The best thing of this outing is that I didnt spent a single cent, except $2 for the lovegety! Ooopz haha. Terry treated dinner & the cab ride home (cabs are so freaking hard to get! haha i advocate taking buses!). HT treated venezia ice cream! Lol I treated them to a shocking time with my "I want to have a child @ 28 but I dont want to get married" goal ahah. Suddenly vday seemed brighter with the company of moi ai ren & terry. Everywhere I see is the flood of vday gifts and couples everywhere, its get all vv sian because now vday seem just like every other day to me but everyone making a big hoo ha out of it. & I seemed to drifted so faraway from sec sch, when vday is a big day for friends too. I still remember those heartwarming gift exchanges, but now its like I dont put much effort in any gifts already. In fact I rarely give any gifts now, but more of presents given out of obligations sometimes. Well well, sometimes, I just wished to go back to the good old classroom days. Times are definitely more fun then.
But its still feel good to crap and chat. I really enjoyed today and dont feel it less warm than before. And yes, do let's go for the graduation trip to Australia and then the Europe trip with our hard earned salaries. =)
Muacks ppl. Happy Vday. & I shld really start on my homework. Oops.
1:02 AMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
11 February, 2006
No time!
But just to update: =)HaPpY BdaY MuMmY!
1. Astrobash XVII @ Pulau Tinggi on 24-26 May 2006 (wed-fri). Anyone interested? Price around $159 (TBC)
2. I get to watch "Confessions of 300 Unmarried Men" and "Army Daze" and "Passengers of the Body" and "Back Up" and "Rosnah - PLAY" for free during Feb and March! All part of my usher job! If only I get to be Esplande Usher too!
3. Going to take the coffeebean test on 20/1. Hopefully can pass, the passing mark is 80! 0_o Pass le then can get my training money!! =) Zzz
4. Been somewhat hardworking. Started reading some readings le. Haha. This never happened during last few sems. But this sem readings like more interesting. Like Japan history, language. Like the changing landscapes in SG. Lala. But I got to start reading those which have midterms!!
5. Been busy. Lots of projects and such. Goodness. 6 modules somemore. With one fieldtrip, four essays, one newsflash, one mtv video and one more visual&audio project and 2 midterms and 6 exams.
6. Somehow still feel tired after I slept for like 8 - 10 hrs? Boo I must cut my sleeping time to arnd 6 hours sia! No time!! Haha but I too pig la I think, so always sleep a lot. And eat a lot.
7. Going out with moi ai ren and terry on vday eve! So long nv see moi ai ren le! Vday will be spent in school with 7 hrs of lsns non stop from 12pm-7pm. What a great vday 0_o!
8. Watched EH productn last night with louis. Hmm I feel tt this year one not so good. Last year was definitely better. This year one no plot and really too draggy. And last yr actors were better. =x But still great to chat with looloo, the crazy siao guy haha. He's graduating soon! From ngee ann poly mass comm! I envvvvy himm! I wanna study mass comm too!!
9. Boo realised a couple of my friend got C+ for nm2208 last year. So I guess my B- wasnt tt bad. Hopefully this year nm3208 wont give me a C. I would hate tt! The stupid dumb normal curve.
10. Family won $60 from Toto. Haha its the numbers I picked that won! =) But only 3 1/2 numbers correct so is $60. Then minus the cost and divide by 5 ahah we each can get $6 only. Lol. But its a gd start to the year! Better than nothing!
11. Bought a lot of tidbits etc and bought Mayday's 知足. Haha I know I lagging k. But the songs are great!! Today just feel like spending money. Haha. =) But must start saving and shouldnt spend so much le!! Topping up cashcard/ezlink + paying HP bills + paying my mum prezzie + all this spending is bad. Must start saving!!
12. Went to Kampong Glam today for project meeting. Happens that they got some cultural thing going on so we went in the museum free ahah and got free food and some interesting performance too. Well hmm but I still dont know how to go about doing the project. Like so hard to write lidat and to come out with survey questions.
Busy busy. Boo. Feel like posting some photos but I think using blogger to upload and post photos is quite troublesome. Wanting to write about overdued stuffs but like vv duh. Sometimes I feel blogging can take up too much time. But then again, sometimes I just scare that I will forget about things and feel like writing everything that happened. Hmm.
10:43 PMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
03 February, 2006
If you have time like us..
Go take this super long quiz.My IQ scores: 141
Complex Intellectual
People who are Complex Intellectuals are highly intelligent and have extraordinarily strong verbal and math skills. Compared to others they are highly conceptual and complex thinkers and are able to understand information in an abstract form. They also show great attention to detail. In fact, it's hard to find something they're not good at.
So tired. Today = School + Design Poster + Print Notes + Find Sijia + Go RH Coffeebean + Go Kampong Glam with Ying Chan + Go home get stuffs + Rollerblade with Drey, BH, YB & his brother + Project meeting online + Blogging + Chatting. W-O-W!
Details later ba. Feel like blogging past few days events but tired sia. Read Drey & BH on one of the few missions we have attempted.
Yupz and some of my middlenames: Late, Indeciveness. >_<
2:13 AMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã
02 February, 2006
时间。
“一年的时间，对三岁小孩而言，是他人生的三分之一。但对二十岁的青年而言，却是他人生的二十分之一。如果你已是七十岁的老人，那么一年的时间只不过是你人生七十分之一而已。所以年纪越大，一年对他而言感觉越来越短，当然觉得时间过得越快。”蔡智恒《孔雀森林》。
Will blog when I have time. (Which is probably during lecture time? =x Just kidding! I am going to be a guai gurl this sem!)
1:36 AMï¼æéå£è¯´äºã